某某人

To: 某某人

2 days ago, it was your birthday. I definitely didn't forget about it. Even though I haven't seen you for almost forever, I just want to wish you a very Happy Birthday, all the way from Kiwi-cum-Moomoo land. Best wishes, my friend. I know, let bygones be bygones, but somehow I know that deep in my heart, I will never forgive myself for my wrong doings. It was comforting to know that you have forgiven me, but this guilt has been living with me for the longest time. I can barely forgive myself for being such a b*tch - leaving such a bad impression of myself in your head. How I wish I can turn back time and undo all that I have stupidly done. Oh well. All I hope is to see you again, and rekindle the old times..

I will always treasure the joy you bring, and cherish with fondness as memories ring..

生日快乐，我亲爱的朋友。(:

Spendthrift ain't gonna spend anymore..

Guess what! I finally have my wish list! I can't believe it!! Haha, it sounds as if I've had everything that I wanted before this, but I thought I could live without those stuff, so they don't count as something that I want. But now it's different!!

I WANT A PDAAAA!!!!!!


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Okay, that isn't considered a wish LIST right? Haha, but that costs a BOMB..

I was trapped in mesmerization (if this word ever exists) when David was playing with his PDA.. ): I want one for myself too! Not quite sure about those specifications for PDA though.. Hehe. I know David's PDA is around NZD$900. Expensive sh*t. I've counted, and for me to be able to afford one myself, I have to stop eating out so often. And if I can eat at home for 2 months, I reckon I can afford a PDA! Yayness. But there's another thing.. I want to save money for my trip to Australia and Hong Kong!! I want to buy more clothes and accessories that I've been missing out here in NZ. Booo.

No matter what, I'll still save money for my PDA. I need to research about it still. I only know that I can surf the net at any Hot Spots, can play songs, play games, store notes, write in Chinese.. Basically it's like a mini computer.. Means it's really useful. Whaha. And b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.

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I've got to constantly remind myself how close my exams are. It's too scary to actually think about it. UMAT results will be coming out this week, and I've got my English explanatory speech this coming Tuesday. Wish me luck people! Just don't let me screw this up.

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I went for a REAL cell group gathering yesterday! Haha! For the first time! Hahaha, yeah I know I should be going for cell group meetings more often.. Shhh. Haha. But anyhow, I thought I gained alot from just one session of cell group. It's really useful, and I do feel the close knitted-ness (ok, my English is horri-gi-ble..) amongst all my church friends. We do check the bible, so I've learnt some living applications that we derive from the Bible, which is wonderful! We sang songs too, and had a refreshment session after that.. I just think my church friends are all wonderful people! All servants of God. I hope I can learn more from them and be a better Christian. Whahaha.

OOOOOOOOOOOH, I forgot to mention.. Our church choir conductor just asked me to sing solo for our song next Sunday... Firstly, I don't think I sing really well, and I've got stage frights at times. Yes, I know I was in choir back in those Chung Cheng days, but.. The techniques of how to sing properly sorta lost in time.. Hahaha. Well, I've promised that I'll do it already, and I've gotta write a personal testimony for myself on that day. Just hope I'll do well I guess. (:

Right, time to work work workkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Turn for the better

I thought I would get to sleep feeling low tonight, but there are so many things I want to announce that my life is great! We just celebrated Hooi Xian's 20th birthday just now, and it was UBER FUN. Surprised her with a chocolatey cake MADE by Joshua (HAHAHA), there was bee hoon and hard boiled eggs too! We had fun playing The Cranium too! Haha, it's this really fun game.. You get to act, whistle, guess words and test your general knowledge! Super fun! Haha, and best of all, the companions.. All from Dunedin Chinese Methodist Church! Had so much fun today. Adding to that, IT SNOWED! WOOHOO! I've long been awaiting for this day to come! Snowing in spring, what a miracle. The night is so beautiful.. I saw many residents running outta their flats shouting, "IT'S SNOWING!!". I was sure they were as excited as I was.. If it continues snowing in an hours' time, Ben promises to bring me up the hill to play snow.. Woohoo. Uber fun. Hehe.

Life's like this.

Sometimes, being confident may not be a good thing. True, many people may agree that optimists who are confident lead happier lives.. But, what if you're confident, for eg, you were confident that you'll score quite well for this test, in the end the marks turn out crappy. Don't you feel like you've been thrown from the peak of the mountain down to sea level? Okay, maybe that's what I call over-confident. Damn, I hate feeling as if I've plunged down a few million feet.. Totally sucks. Oh well, it happens to me so many times.. I just hope I don't get immune to it.. Disappointments after disappointments..

Sorry, the recent posts have been so crappy and saddening.. But I'm trying my best to get back on track, feel happy, and be my old self.. So many problems.. So many thoughts.. Floating in my mind.. Personal problems.. Academic problems.. Blahblahblah. Well, life's like this aye? That makes life a rollercoaster ride.. Like what everyone says.. So I shall be happy again.. Smile Jesssssssssssssssssssssssss! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: No matter what, all's under God's hand.. He will make a way for me. Nothing's under my total control, and I can't do much about them.. 神已造了人生的路。

God will make a Way, when there seems to be no Way. He works in Ways we cannot see, He will make a Way for me. Definitely, absolutely, 100% right.

I feel so much better now.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

My very DEAR friend Yeat Nai Hau has just reminded me that we have got 33 days to exams, 4 more weekends left. STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Wish me luck people. I doubt I will be blogging until 1st Nov (my last paper). I have to work really hard for this last stretch of the run. Gambate! 加油加油加油！

Love,
Jessica

Disappointed.

I'm feeling so down now I'm sure I can jump out of my room window. (Just that it's too small and I can't squeeze through it)

Firstly, I just got back my ENGL124 Group Presentation mark and it sucks TOTALLY. How did I do so well in Foundation Year I really don't know. What is wrong with me?! Adding to that, my ENGL124 Summary Test also SUCKED. How you tell me? I really don't wanna live already.

Secondly, I just had my BIOC111 Terms Test this morning. Basically, I mugged like anything in the library for the past 2 weeks. Turns out really tricky.. Got quit a bad feeling about it. ):

This is the LOW LOW LOWWWWW point of my 19th year of my life. And I'm definitely not enjoying it.

Maybe because of my PMS, my results, stress plus all other COFACTORS. Damn, all the Biochem stuff still in my head. Ben is darn happy that the BIOC test is overrr, so I'm really happy for him. Meanwhile I shall mourn over my own predicament..............

Photos are here!!

My parcel all the way from SINGH KA POH!!


Shit, look at the number of stamps.


My belated birthday presents from Joan and Shuo! Thanks a million, babes! (:


Muahaha, the pink N7610 cover from JANICE CHEUNG!


Ben's gonna kill me for this. But he looks sooo cute, right?! Aww..


My turn! Haha, the parcel came at 830 in the morning, that's why I was in jammies. HOHOHO.


THE presents!


LOVE my phone now.


Me and my phone. Hehe. XD


Random photo. It's Hoyts Cinema at night. NICE RIGHT?!


Another random photo. Rialto Cinema! Which is nicer, you reckon?


Saw this caption on the floor. It's everywhere in Dunedin! WTH.

Star Of The Day - Claire Makiko Miura!

Claire: "Hmmm, what should I wish for..?"


Claire:"Oh okay! Got it."


Mich:"Eat those chocolate flakes on top of the cake, without using your hands!"



Claire:"Okay, okay, whatever you say, Miss Mi Xue" XD


Claire:"Damn it, so big."


THE cake of the day.


The flatties. Kai Ting, Claire, Michelle.


The good friends. Haha. Ben, Claire, Jess


The photo frame from the flatties.


Claire opening our present - Beautiful necklace and earrings. She's wearing them in most photos.


The yummylicious slice of cake. Oops, too bright.


Claire:"Yummy-ness."

Something to ponder about..

Well, there's been this Singapore-Malaysia thing actively spreading around the whole blogsphere, or at least among the Singaporeans and Malaysians, especially after Xiaxue criticised how sucky her trip to KL was. Being a really popular blogger, I'm sure many have read that post. Some may agree with her, and some don't. Well, needless to say, many, and I mean MANY, blogders and bloggers did comment on her KL entry. Thus, stirring up the SIN-MSIA 'war' thingy in the blogsphere.

I mean, come on, abit the childish right? I'm Singaporean, and I do love my country alot. I've also got a number of Malaysian friends, since I actually am studying abroad. I'm pretty sure they don't hate their country. I went to KL in early January this year. Honestly speaking, I didn't really like the place, but I went there to celebrate my friend's birthday. No matter what, I still had fun there, so I shouldn't go criticising about some other country.

It hurts me when people start hurling bad comments about Singapore in some of the blogs. I feel absolutely terrible, because, I'm actually quite used to people praising about how clean Singapore is, how fast we've improved since the olden days, how excellent our public transport system is etc. Then again, some commented that Malaysia stinks, for eg, taxi drivers are dishonest, and I found it disturbing too, because these comments do anger people, especially Malaysians.

I'm not trying to say that we shouldn't comment on Xiaxue's bad experience, but I guess this SIN-MSIA thing has gone way too far. Ever wondered if more and more people start reading and creating blogs, the whole blogsphere would seem so realistic until there would be a real war?! Oh please, don't make that happen. 唇亡齿寒 is all I remember from my 250 成语 book that clearly defines how I should handle this terrible 'crisis'. Singapore and Malaysia are both so close to each other, either by geographical manner or having relatives across the causeway. It is common for people t0 have relatives of another country, but relatives of different families all from the same country? Maybe not that common after all. Some political stuff that I can't be bothered much about have added fuel to the huge flame of hatred between the 2 countries.

Damn, just don't go to war lah. Tolong tolong. And stop all these SG vs MSIA thing too. It's getting on my nerves.

Birthdays and Celebrations!

It's a special day today, because it's Ben's birthday! For the students in Singapore, it's also Teachers' Day, which means they get to celebrate and everything today! Happy Teachers' Day, 教师节快乐！to all the noble teachers of Singapore! Plus, the weather is sooooo wonderful on this especially beautiful day. I could see a ray of sunlight peeking through the small gap between my curtains at 7am! How cool is that? Banana-ly cool. Haha.

A few days ago, I emailed my mama, telling her how I was doing, and added that it was Ben's birthday today. I don't know what's gotten into her, but she replied, and I quote, "enjoy your holidays and give bennie a muck for me for his birthday hahahaha, I think his face will be red like fire!" My jaw DROPPED from 10th floor to Basement 3. I read the email to Ben, and he commented that my mama is drunk. -rofl- But the whole email was weird actually, cos she used words like, "no worries", "ciao" and "hahaha". How spunky can my mama get? Really,no kidding man. Mamas these days.. Totally different from their mamas - our Ah Mas. OH! It was my Ah Ma's birthday yesterday! How cool is that?!

It's been birthdays after birthdays for me this week. Last night we enjoyed company with my ex hostel mates back in El Nido, and of course, the matron himself, since he was the birthday MAN. (: It was really fun, drinking and munching goodies at his place before heading to the Chinese restaurant for dinner. Pete and his friends (one of them being a FY teacher) were really jovial and totally enjoying themselves, and it was really interesting getting to know more about Kiwi culture.

We were talking about getting older and ages, and we were forced to guess who was older between Pete and Matt(the FY teacher). As Pete said, by the end of the day, we'd make a friend and an enemy! LOL. But in the end, they told us the truth, and obviously, I got the answer right! Haha. Pete's other friend Jackie told us that she was older than both of them! Our eyes were literally popping outta our eye sockets, cos' she definitely didn't look THAT old, or so we thought. Pete joked that she's had 5 face lifts. Haha. The night was filled with our laughters and singing and jokes. Really entertaining night.

What's up next? Ben's birthday, of course. OH I forgot to mention! Today is a special day too, because..

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I GOT A PARCEL ALL THE WAY FROM SINGAPORE!!!!!!

-bounces around the room-


I was exhilarated! Well, photos will show how happy I am. To think I would be taking photos in jammies and messy hair but BIG GORGEOUS EYES. Siao liao.

Big hugs from me to my wonderful lil' sister Janice for spending $12 (not including the big envelope thingy) just to send the parcel here, and also not forgetting the Pink N7610 handphone cover she got for me! OMGOMGOMG, I'm in lurvvvv with pink again. Indulge in the pink thug, baby! And also to Joan and Shuo! Thanks for all the funky necklace & bracelets you've gotten for me! I totally enjoyed taking photos of myself with those accessories! Somehow I have the feeling that today would be a grrrrreat day for both Ben and I...

PHOTOS ON THE NEXT POST! WATCH THIS SPACE.