Thursday, April 28, 2005

haven't blogged for sucha long time!

how r u guys? fine? i'm having my one week holiday now.. NOT as song as you guys think.. trying to study as much as i can.. WHILE playing and having fun at the same time.. haha.

had steamboat sessions, picnic sessions, chat whole day long sessions, late night movie sessions ETC. oh, and gym sessions. lol! since nien my flatmate is leaving us real soon to go back to msia, i'm trying to spend abit more time with her.. (: HI NIEN! LOL.

oh, by the way, i'm arriving in singapore on the evening of 16th june, but returning a little earlier.. 5th july.. i think.

nothing quite significant happened these past 2 weeks, just gotta watch how much time i'm spending in front of my monitor screen. it's quite scary to actually count how many hours i spend using the laptop. eeks.

when guys are really so obsessed in their games, is it really really tough for them to quite playing them? i've tried umpteen times asking ben to STOP playing ROSE online (which is really, personally, a ridiculous game), and reminded him that the higher his level gets, the more he won't stop playing.. he just can't stop playing the game. so sick of telling him to end this evil 'game cycle'. even if he stops playing ROSE, he will still play something else.

HOW! can someone advise me on how i can ask him to concentrate on his studies and don't play so much? he's not only neglecting his studies, he neglecting.. me as well. -wails- alrite, it's actually NOT that serious lah, but i just don't want him to play that game! i'm sooooo against people playing that game now (sorry if you're actually playing it =X). sigh.

BUT nevertheless, its the holidays and i should work and play hard at the same time. YAYY! epidemiology terms test next saturday, CUM ASEAN night on the same day. 6 girls (including me) will be dancing the Fundance2002 on that day! remember that dance or not ppl!?

DEEP IN MY HEARTTTTTTTTTTT, I JUST KNOW..

refreshed your memory?! yeah, but steps are added into the dance lah, so it won't look so retarding.. REPRESENTING SINGAPORE MAN! haha. hopefully we won't xia suay on that day. -ROFL-

aaaaaaight, gotta hang my clothes now. its a B-E-A-UTIFUL day today, miraculously. yayy! happy day today, cos it's ALSO chungie bday!!!

Happy 19th Birthday, Chungie Chung Chung!!! May all your wishes come true and may you grow in the embracement of God! yayyyyyyyyyyyy! hip hip hurray! hahaha. it'a a pity i can't join you guys for the birthday celebration, but i'm spiritually there yeaH?! give you guys the enthusiam and everything. lol.

-gone-

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i complained to ma that i couldn't study at home! firstly, the laptop is SUPER tempting... the BED as well.. so she suggested i try going to the library to study. JESSICA = LIBRARY GIRL.. for a week (try out lah.. haha.)

so i went to the library to study yesterday afternoon. it was so quiet !!! -.- okay, it IS a library.. its actually more specifically the Science Library in the uni.. went there to study cos its really close to my flat.. woohoo. BUT being the kay-poh me, or rather the EASILY distracted me, i always look up when someone walks past. its not really annoying, but i would prefer noone walking around. but hey, it worked okay! i managed to study for 3 hours there.. though i must say i was really really sleepy right after lunch.. lol!

since i was really sleepy, i took out my mp3 player, listened to some music.. and i was on the go again.. but guess what. the mp3 player DIED ON ME.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

aiyah, i don't really care much now.. cos the player was just for a short interval of 'entertainment' while i'm in the library.. so yeah. (:

i don't want to spend too much money again.. it's really time for me to save up man. there was a period of time when i had only 14 bucks in my EFTPOS (NETS for sg).. you know for how long?! a week okay! i almost died can. haha, luckily i stocked up my fridge and pantry, or else i'll SERIOUSLY starve. i hate the feeling of being broke.. but remembering the days in singapore, i'm actually broke most of the time aye!? tsk tsk.. really need to kick this horrible habit of mine..

just a thought. if i ever become a pharmacist, will i have any future in singapore..? i think i remembered from the news that the dispensary in clinics will be separated from the clinic itself is it? crap. i dunno man!!! i know the polyclinic works this way, but is it true that for private clinics it will be the same way? what about hospitals? i really need to think for my future man.

as far as i can remember, i think i had alot alot alot of ambitions. okay, if you wanna skip this part just scroll down to the next paragraph. let me list all the ambitions i ever dreamt of since i was a kid.

1. doctor (can save lives and can earn big bucks!! it is still my ambition tho')
2. nurse (if can't be doctor, why not nurse right? besides, nurses are so nice too!)
3. lawyer (i ALWAYS quarrel with janice until my mum asked me to go be one.. -.-)
4. vet (yeah! i love animals!!! EXCEPT for cats. damn it lah, i still can't get over this phobia of mine)
5. fashion designer (i love drawing.. and fashion! just that my drawing is not as good as others..)
6. interior designer (imagine a B-E-A-UTIFUL house designed all by yourself man!)
7. police woman (ER.... can we skip this? haha!)
8. business woman (open a MANICURE shop with janice.. HAHA! so weird right!)
9. teacher (now, this one i REALLY thought about it. it isn't really bad right.. i'm just afraid the students will be smarter than i am..)
10. singer (LOL! i love singing! but once again, only if i go for voice training will i stand out from the crowd.)
11. hair stylist (ever wondered how those hair stylist even style your hair!? so cool man! the scissors snapping here and there...)
12. finanace consultant (wah! this one was just a casual thought. but, imagine consulting BILL GATES or something. OMG! lol!)
13. dietician (this is another serious one. it would be so fun assisting britney spears or something. not only that, you can actually watch your diet at the same time!)
14. ice cream woman (HAHA. maybe better named a business woman who sells ice cream! who can live without ice cream man! not me please..)
15. childcare centre principal (look at all the kiddies running here and there.. aww.. ain't that cuteeee. can help those working parents a huge load man.)
16. TAI TAI (eh, if my hubby really earns big bucks, i don't mind playing mahjong and yum cha the whole day man!)
17. open a dance school (with janice as one of its teachers. (: but i won't be teaching, not good enough. LEST i learn dancing again. hohoho.. look at jess hippo jumping here and there. HAHA!)
*already having difficulties trying to scrape out all my ambitions*
18. open a record company (train all those soon-to-be or aspiring singers!)

ok lazy to think already. gotta go to the library now. tata!! =D

Friday, April 15, 2005

i'm rather disappointed about my chem terms test. :(

i need to work MUCH harder this time. i think i don't spend enough time studying.. be it library or home. oh, i don't study at the library.

confirmed dates for trip back to singapore: june 17th dunedin-->christchurch. christchurch-->sg
6th july sg-->chistchurch. christchurch-->dunedin.

yup. yesterday was josephine's bday.. and there were 20 candles on the cake. (: but it felt as if there were too many candles on the cake.. its true people, we are really growing old. not in a bad way tho'. we learn more, experience more etc. it IS a good thing to grow up actually.

the change of epidemiology tutor was for the better. lucky for me, i got a much better tutor as compared to the previous one. phew.

don't ask me, BUT i'm still sad about my fringe.. and ben (@()$*)(%&&%(#*$)*@)*%)(&%#()*$)#&%@)$%@*)$* still thought that teasing my fringe would HELP ALOT.. THANKS AH BRUDDA. lol.

...

uni's NOT easy peesy.. as mum says.. do well so you can CHOOSE what you can do and not restricted to limited options. it's really not an easy task to do.. suddenly i feel the pressure coming up onto me.. PPPP...RRREEE...SSUREEEE......

i'm so into this song now.. i duno why.. quite meaningful only.. maybe it's the tune.. yeah. its yi ran shi peng you by yu heng. i just like the tune cos its easy for everyone to sing.. like a sing-a-long song.. haha.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

oh, and the links are working already.. fixed it, finally. haha, go blog hop all you like ppls! HAHA.


(:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!



my poor fringe................. :(

i was looking at myself in the mirror half an hour ago, and i thought my fringe was way too long already. so i decided to CUT IT! so i was so excited when i borrowed a pair of scissors from nien, grabbed a portion of my fringe, AND CUT! this is when i screamed.



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! my fringe looked so horrible!!!! lei was there, and since she claimed that she was a good fringe trimmer (yeah she is), i put my fringe in her hands, and voila(or voala)! my fringe looked SO MUCH BETTER. but.. the STUPID mistake i made is EVIDENT..

please take a look at jessica. the mistake is the SHORTEST part of the fringe.. the place where she parts her fringe. -.-






suaku jess with her suaku fringe.




becomes a china doll. "da cuo te cuo bu yao lai, wu ru wo de mei!"




me with the finger pointer, nien. HAHA.



AW MAN... i shall go meet ben later and i'll see if he can actually spot the difference in me... *wails*. i'm already so ugly and now i'm UGLIER.. boohoohoo. am supposed to vacuum the carpet in nien's room.. but she actually did it herself! thanks loads! -hugs-


i'm going back to singapore for only 2 short weeks... but yeah, as everyone says.. "better than nothing, right?" ok lah, am contented lah. haha. okay, now i shall just mourn about my fringe.

Monday, April 11, 2005

FINALLY, the cousin's collage MASTERPIECE IS OUT!


i think i'm really NOT studying hard, aye?

sigh. oh well! be happy, cuzzies!



if any of u guys want me to send to u, just tell me via msn lah. ok? :)


BACK TO STUDYING.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

oh man.. i think i'm too free or something..


i think i changed quite a bit since i was in sec sch.. let's review, shall we?


secondary 2 (year 2000)


secondary 3 (year 2001)


secondary 4 (year 2002)


j 1 (year 2003)


just arrived in NZ (feb year 2004)


later part of the year (oct year 2004)


back in singapore !! (dec year 2004)


CNY chu1 (feb year 2005)


back to NZ (march year 2005)


sorry if i've tempted any of u with e triple scoop ice cream, but its only 2NZ BUCKS!! almost equals to SGD!!!!!! haha. (late march year 2005)


and finally, this is the current me (april year 2005)


TADA ! so....... do you guys think i changed alot? i mean, i think i do lahh.. haha. from hair styles.. from specky.. yeah. sec sch was such an awkward age man! haha.. maybe some of you guys are in those photos, you guys can check out how much you guys have changed too ! (:


OH! i just found 2 pictures that i REALLY wanna post up!!!!!


me with baby cousin joseph !!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO CUTE RITE!!!!!!!


joseph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


yup. so cuteeeeeeeeee. haha. okays, shall stop here.. should be coming back on 19th or prolly 17th of june. catcha guys laters. -muah-

Saturday, April 09, 2005

I'M GOING BACK TO SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE



before i even told mum that i didn't wanna go back, she alreayd booked the tickets.. so yeah. WATCH OUT FOR ME.. gonna HAUNT you guys. HAHAHA.
chem term's test finally overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!


man.. i hate it so much. i mean, the answers so close..! i doubt i can do well this time. and i wasn't even DEFINITELY sure if it was the right answer.. buut, oh well, it's over already aye?

had my yummy bento @ tokyo garden with ben and nien.. YUMMMMM. haha. haven't had it for a week. but i so needa save?! my EFTPOS (something like NETS in singapore) amount if draining out. MASSIVE man. shucks. i really need to learn to save some money.. i even bought a top today ! BUT HEY IT'S NICE AND CHEAP LAHHH!! cos all summer clothes are now on sale.. since autumn's here and winter's coming real soon.


am worrying about so much stuff.. a few days ago, i confirmed with some of my friends that i WILL be going back to singapore in june after all.. but 2 days ago, i felt that even if i go back, i won't be of much help to the situation, and i have a major exam (UMAT, something like a medicine exam that you need to pass in order to get into medicine) in mid july, and my physics mid year exam a week right after my birthday (15th july). it's so stressful to even THINK about it. if i stay here in dunedin, my doubt and questions can be cleared by sooo many people! but if i don't, then no one can help me with UMAT in singapore.. cos people in singapore does SATS but not UMAT.. since UMAT is an australia thingy. so yeah. am gonna call mummy now.. tell her that i'm BROKE and i may not go back in singapore.. sorry guys.. :( i really wanna work hard this year. i've finally come to a decision which is rational, but not happy news for some people.

qi:: sorry for letting you write sooooooooooooo many reasons on the letter on why i should goback to singapore, and disappointing you..

chungie and stephie: sorry for actually telling you guys that i'm 100% coming back.. putting your hopes so high.

janice: sorry i can't actually teach you and prepare you for 'o' levels. jie also as stressed as you. bahhs.


but then again, if i am gonna stay in dunedin for the holidays, i can go to christchurch and even australia to shop and maybe ski again !!! yeah.. soooooo i doubt i'll go back. my decision is not to go back.. but everything still lies with my mum.. if she wants me back, i'll go. haha. okay, ciao.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

yesterday was a bad bad bad day.


this could be a turning point of my life.

it could change my life forever.


it could.. but i'm going to face it bravely.



be strong. jess, be strong.

Monday, April 04, 2005

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO REPLIED MY PREVIOUS ENTRY !! :D:D:D

however, i haven't exactly decided whether i want to go back or not. BUT DO YOU ALL KNOW THAT BEN'S MOTHER ACTUALLY SAID THEY (ben and his sister) MIGHT BE ABLE TO GO BACK IN JUNE ?!

think ben doesn't want to.. cos if they to go back in june, doubt they would be able to return to singapore in december. expensive man.

ROAR ! am now at ben's place and he's bullying me.. :( he licked my face and its damn stinky now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i started it all though.. cos i bit his arm and it stunk (according to him). HAHAHAHA. think we're just having some kiddie fun or something..


exams start on 10th and ends on 15th june. 3 papers in all - biology, chemistry and epidemiology..


just changed my tutorial time for epidemiology today.. cos i SERIOUSLY cannot understand my tutor.. and his knowledge for epidemiology is not very broad as well.. for example.. there was this question which we were supposed to discuss on.. and he DIDN'T know how to do it and he just said, 'right, we'll pass that.'

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


what kind of teacher says that lah?! and he leaves at the same time as the students, so i couldn't ask him any questions.


NIEN'S LEAVING US... cos she's going back to malaysia ('malaysia, truly asiaaaaaaaaaa...' HAHA) to study. and someone has to take over her room, which is beside mine. AND.. the hei1 de4 just told me yesterday that her brother MAY be coming to dunedin, so she asked whether he could stay in nien's room... i just told her 'i need some time to consider'.

WHY I DON'T WANT HER BROTHER IN OUR FLAT:

if i can't stand her attitude, how can i actually take her brother's? i mean, they're all from the same flock right? it's better to be safe than sorry man.

he's a GUY. okay, i admit that i wear REALLY casually at home.. and i wear a robe around the house you know.. so.. AN ALL GIRLS' FLAT IS PREFERRED. (lei, my other flatmate agrees)

I HAVE TO SHARE THE TOILET WITH A MALE?!?!?! and not only a male, the hei1 de4's brother?!

FYI, our toilet paper has been running out since the day we all moved in. i can say with evidence that she has been the one who is 'couping' all the toilet paper.. who uses so much toilet paper man!? imagine this: 1 toilet paper roll for 3 people in 2 days. MAX. WTH?! after we had a meeting about 'toilet paper', the toilet paper roll 'lifespan' did actually improve.. BY HALF A DAY. oh great. more than 12 toilet paper rolls FINISHED within a month. WAH. marvellous.

hei1 de4's room is beside mine, nien's room is beside mine as well. which means i'm sandwiched between both rooms. if hei1 de4 blasts her indian music like noone's business (refer to a few posts back) , and IF her brother does so as well, sigh. you guys just go imagine the AURA. *does indian dance* happy go lucky lah.

P.S it's not that i'm racist, but i'm really agitated by her so many times that i'm so sick of it. and for the name 'hei1 de4', its just a nick. i'm usually NOT against people of other races, its just her character that pisses me off.


alritey, enough of my blabberings and yada yadas.. haha. OH, and I HATE ROSE ONLINE. it's this game that ben's crazy over. really want to open that stupid game and delete it off his com man. HMPH. am being ignored because of this ridiculous game. ROARRRRRRRRR !!

okay, really ending this post right now. byee! (:

Saturday, April 02, 2005

i have nothing much to blog today.. but there are some important dates for me to take notice of..

8th April: Bio Lab Report due

9th April: Chemistry Terms Test

well, i'll be singing for the church choir tomorrow.. hopefully i don't go off key or whatsoever. it's been a long 2 years since i've been in a choir. man.. memories of CCHSM choir.. though sometimes we had to practise like mad, and some of our seniors/leaders suck, i really miss CCHSM choir. maybe it's the group of people i hang out with from choir.. it was real fun training with you guys. ok, i think none of them knows this blog of mine (EXCLUDES THAZIN), but yeah.. choir rocks aye?! hahhahaahaha.

really wanna thank BEN.. cos he was the one who DRAGGED me for choir practice.. i didn't actually wanna go today.. cos i just thought i would just feel left out or something.. but it was fun and the people there are all so cheerful and rowdy.. which makes the atmosphere much more lively and joyful. the song that we will be singing is simple and beautiful. LALALA. okay, shan't do that anymore lest SOME PEOPLE think i'm ACTING cute.

should i go back to singapore in june?!

i miss home, i miss my friends and family (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS), i miss the food and atmosphere (AHHHHHHHHHHH).

BUT.. i have a couple of exams after the 3 weeks of holidays - physics, UMAT ( important !!!) and if i stay here i can ask questions that i'm unsure of.

it's a short holiday..

holiday starts latest 22nd june.. which means students of singapore will finish their holidays already..

i'm wasting my mum's kris flyer points..

BEN DOESN'T WANT ME TO LEAVE.


howwwwwwww. sighs. can you guys tell me?? should i go back or not.....

OH! my birthday will be during my holidays as well.. 8th july.. 8th july.. 8th july.. haha. so if i go back, means i can celebrate with my friends, BUT not with ben.. this is so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!

tell me what i should do. :(