Today.. Or should I say yesterday was a very tiring day.. Since I'm still awake at this hour.

Woke up at 7am to go to the wet market with Dad and Edith to buy food for the bbq farewell party.. Was so damn tired, I must say. I helped Edith by marinating the meat, and folding spare ribs into aluminium foils. Actually, all the efforts are all for her. *clap clap* She not only learns fast, her memory is super good. Whatever Dad has taught her, she's got all of 'em in her head. I can N E V E R E V E R be a good cook cos' I'll just simple pour stuff into the food without even thinking. =
Actually I'm quite glad so many people came.. Especially my tennis coach ( LOVE HIM! ), 5th aunt and her children, DAD, AH MA, and all my CCHSM friends. :)

THANKS: Denise and Woan Ting for the present and card they gave me :: I simple love Ferrero Rocher and Loacker! ;P ::

Qi for the beautiful storage box I've always wanted, some letter pads and a matching pink winter hat and scarf :: Qi, I love you!!! ::

Jeff for the beautiful song he composed for me :: It's really nice la.. But I forgot the tune. MUST SEND TO ME! ::

Junwei and Weiming for the ever so creative T-shirt they customised for me :: Its REALLY creative, guys! ;) ::

Edith for the wonderful bbq food :: If not for her, we'll be starving. ::

Dad and Mum for taking time off to help me with the party :: Muackx! ::

Mr Ang for the nice red and black scarf :: It's very nice! ::

Claressa for rushing down just to pass me some food and speak to me :: I'll miss you, gurl! ::

Everyone for coming to my farewell party :: Woohoo. ::

Those who apologized when they couldn't come :: I understand, really. ::

Chungie and Thazin for listening to me SOB and WHINE and pack my luggages till 2am :: You guys are so dear to me.. ::

Those who wished me good luck! :: Thanks! ::

Those who rushed down from anywhere in Singapore to celebrate this day with me :: I'm really touched.. ::


Well, after all the thanking.. It's time to reminisce and think of how I'm feeling right now. Basically, I'm not handling this situation well.. My luggages are overweight due to my clothes, my books, my accessories. I haven't even put in my shoes and toiletries too.. I keep crying cos' I'm leaving.. And it's not good either. At first, I was way excited to get out of this place and pursue my studies in a different environment.. But everyone knows that it'll be stressful first when we go to a very different cultured place, and the people there will not be the same as those here. So now, I'm feeling a little down, a little frightened, a little.. Different. May I please remind myself that I'M LEAVING TOMORROW...?!

Steph says I should trust my heart, and don't make myself regret of things that I didn't do. Yes, I know that there's something I haven't done. But I do not have the courage to do it. Call me a chicken. Well, I should just start afresh there.. Since no one knows me there, and no one knows my past.

Why did he message Chungie...? He is making me puzzled.. I don't know what he's thinking about now.. Why doesn't he just message me.. Am I really that unapproachable..? This sucks man.

Well, for the past 2 minutes, I've just been staring at the screen, thinking of what to type.. But my mind is blank. There's nothing else to write about. Okay, this will be my last entry to this blog in Singapore. Short, ain't it?

Went to eat at Marche with Ning and Tuck.. This will be the last time I'll see Tuck!!! Cos' he'll be having some field camp in Army.. So he won't be able to come out this Saturday to send me off... Sobx*!! Then walked around Heeren to find some small gifts for JAAC.. Excluding me la.. Haha..

Met Chun and Aud at PS..!! Aud has longer hair now.. Chun also.. Rebonded hair also.. Then Aud said both of us like wear until so matured.. Lol* Ate desserts and rot at Lips Cafe @ Cine to wait for Abby.. Suddenly so many primary school memories came back la.. We had so many good laughs about what rubbish we did in the past.. Haha.. Aud gave me a pretty cool photo frame with a note in it.. And Chun gave me a Precious Moment mug.. Thanks!!

Abby finally arrived from her match at about 5.. Went to Buttercup Cafe @ Cine while she ate her Rum and Raisins ice-cream.. Then we continued to talk.. Abby gave us this heart made of paper with those saga seeds as border.. Very sweet.. :) So great to see them after so long.. Especially Abby!! Then we went to Pretty in Tokyo to take neoprints.. Since I'm so ever familiar with all the machines there.. We took so many nice neoprints.. So happy!! Haha! Left town at around 7pm.. Blah blah....!

WTF.. My entry just went missing. So tired already.. Summarise everything in an even shorter post.. Found tuition for Jan in the afternoon.. Went to Steph house to rot or awhile before meeting Qi at Tampines MRT station.. Then met Mel at Bedok MRT station.. Then Chungie and Thazin at ECP.. Went Jumbo Seafood Restaurent to makan.. SUPER NICE..! Ate CHILLI CRAB, garoupa, scallop with yam, steamed prawns with garlic or something.. Aiyah everything super delicious la.. Need me to explain more..? Bill was $135.15.. Thanks Qi for treating meeeee!!!!! :) Went to some resting place then Ad Infinitum gave me this squishy and cute cushion thingy from MOGU!! Soooo nice to hug ok.. Thanks guysssss for my farewell pressie!!! Janice quarrelled with Dad.. Dunno what to do..

Cheer up, Steph! Get well, Ning! Make up, Jan and Pa! Wake up, Jess!

Actually I don't know how I'm feeling now.. Today went to confirm everything for Ad Infinitum sweater.. At last we've got everything ready.. But when we got there, I got this terrible tummyache that I was in the toilet for like 8min lo.. Forget the details. Haha.. Then we went to Clarke Quay to watch Thazin climb.. Under 20 Women Finals.. Cool man.. I didn't know rock climbing was so difficiult and challenging.. Woohoo.. Jan was with us cos' we were supposed to find her tuition for Maths and Science.. But then too late already.. So didn't go.. Very funny la today.. Haha.. Kept laughing and laughing.. Steph got super amused about my mouth gesture la.. Haha.. Alot of rubbish.. But had so much fun today.. Hee.

Ning got kidney infection and is now in the hospital.. When both me and Jan reached her ward, she was already starting to shiver like crap.. The doctor said it was because the bacteria has gone into her blood stream.. That's why she was shivering.. Heard from the other patient's relatives that many kidney problem patients all shiver when they took their medicine.. She was in such a bad condition that I cried.. She was trying so hard not to shiver but she continued to shiver.. Her whole body was like aching.. I kept crying lo.. She's like a sister to me.. And I've never seen her in such a condition before.. HOPE SHE GETS WELL SOON!!!!

Waiting for Jan to finish bathing.. Oh she just came out. Wee.. Go bathe.

Went out with Joan and Shuo today.. Watched Stuck On You which wasn't very nice.. Not as funny as I thought it would be.. Took neoprints twice lo.. Haha..

Oh, before that went to temple to pray Tai Sui.. Smoky and everything.. Had prawn noodles lo.. So delicious! YUM!!

MUST FORGET! MUST FORGET!!

I don't know how I should feel now.. Am I supposed to feel relieved, or am I supposed to feel bereft.. How come everything doesn't seem to be going my way.. Or maybe I should take that as a lesson.. Why like that la.. I hate myself.

Bought laptop already.. IBM X31.. But why don't I feel overjoyed or exhilarated.. How come unexpectedly my eyes will be welled with unwanted tears.. I don't wanna cry.. But I cannot control my feelings..

'I duno how to say this but I've put you out of my mind for so long.. I'm not sure if I want you back in it.'

Today went to have lunch with my family before meeting Joan and Shuo.. Met them at Heeren and there were so many people waiting in queue to see Xiao Zhu a.k.a Luo Zhi Xiang loh.. I think his songs are not bad loh.. Shuo agrees but Joan doesn't really think much of him.. Haha. Took neoprints in the machine we once loved to take in.. But long time didn't use that machine already.. Neverhteless the neoprints turned out great!! Hehe.. Joan was supposed to find slippers and something for Ann cos' its her birthday today! It was raining today AGAIN.. Damn weather la.. Went to Far East to look for slipper and Joan found one.. Not bad loh.. Very nice and not expensive.. Then I went to return my book Just Friends.. After that we showed Shuo her SURPRISE. Lol! She was laughing like crap la.. How come we got so lame until do that kinda thing.. Haha. Joan bought a pig crystal ball and some scotch tape holder with two fat man.. Very creative I must say. We simple feng1 our day away la.. Kept talking and laughing and trying to be funny around Orchard. I must say Orchard is ren2 shan1 ren2 hai3 today loh.. Even though Chingay was yesterday.

Supposed to go to Thazin's house tomorrow.. But then Mum said she was going to Mexico for two weeks.. Means she won't have anymore time to bring me to buy laptop already.. So I gotta go with her tomorrow and miss our Ad Infinitum meeting. Sigh. Was looking forward to it though.. Now the thought has been SHATTERED. Haha.. Too dramatic already. Lol.

Okay, its been a long day and I'm tired! Hope tomorrow they can gao dim the sweater and I can find my ideal laptop, and my com can work WELL by tomorrow..

How come you don't call me, anymore..?